Some say you can adjust, make the best of a life challenge. It's like falling into the "rabbit hole" of Alice in Wonderland.
You try your best, do what you can and often "go with the flow".
Here's what I wrote as we struggled just to move day to day:
Daughter and I are both trying to find full time jobs.
We're both working part time.
Can't afford to work on Commission basis.
Need consistent income to overcome and just pay bills.
With full time jobs, we would have some security.
We've found "gigs"--always waiting for the next one "to appear".
One day out of many. We needed desperately to be different.
It's been difficult at my work lately.
We both had the day off. This was unusual.
We had enough in our "budget" for the week to use the Gas we had in the tank and replace it.
Decided to "splurge" and take a chance, to continue to survive, move forward.
We, separately and together, felt the need to feel close. That meant traveling to Mom's gravesite.
To gain strength from being "near" as we did for years.
A journey of more than 100 miles round trip, providing some peace -- now that we've returned.
It's been difficult at my work lately.
Challenges I'm not sure I want to continue to endure.
With no other opportunities, I keep believing in tomorrow.
Like many others, we move from day to day.
We know this time provides the basis for our keeping a roof over our heads and food on the table.
I know I can't walk away until I find another.
This is the typical "world of work" and I am only one of many.
There's one "challenge" I face many do not --
Not so easy to find work "at my age".
Mom's life was her example to me of personal strength and caring beyond yourself.
Mom's life was her example to me of personal strength and caring beyond yourself.
She taught me to believe in my "self'.
I'd practiced that lesson many times over when she was around.
